Drawing Conclusions

This isn’t the first blog I have tried to keep going but so far it is the most successful. Blogging is a funny thing. For me it is somewhere between an open diary, talking back to the TV and being a blindfolded public speaker, not knowing if there is even anyone in the room or, if they are there, how they react to what you say.
I am actually a bit scared of someone commenting. It is one thing to feel that what one says is a load of codswallop but to have it confirmed by others is daunting.
My earlier attempts where unimpressive. I saw a cartoon about the least interesting person on the internet who had a blog with only a few entries, each apologising for not blogging more often and promising to do better next time. That was me. The cartoonist must have been the person who read my first blog.
It started off with a desire to connect with people but not having anything say. After all I am not a very interesting person. There was also the issue of being to scared to own up to what went in, to stay anonymous, and even hiding behind anonymity I didn’t want to offer an actual opinion. There were a few blog entries written and then deleted before being replaced with something banal or nothing at all.
I am by nature a private person. I generally mind my own business and don’t expect anyone to be slightest bit interested in what goes on in my life or what I think. As a freelance illustrator I work alone. These two factors leads to isolation. A blog is a way of reaching out and connecting with others so as to avoid isolation. The desire to be part of communities and affect peoples lives is part of what it is to be human. So if I am anonymous or if I never never offer up an opinion for fear of being judged then for me there is no point in blogging, and possibly anything else.

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